Woke up this morning in complete awe of the circumstances that not only occurred last night, but as I looked at my phone continued this very morning. The badgering, the blaming, the belittling, the bullying, the “gaslighting” was happening again. A circumstance where if they disagree with your decisions, furry is unleashed. I sat back as I have walked this path previously only to have hope and faith that this wasn’t the true self just a bad day. When my character of faith was challenged and I was told “you are lost and no one will ever want you”, that was when I knew this was a toxic unhealthy relationship for me to stay in. Any man sent by God would never say such hurtful things to someone they supposedly love. In faith we are not to point out our flaws but love one another and heal one another not intentionally hurt them. One thing I do know in finding my faith and building my relationship with my father is to know that he doesn’t always give you the things you want but rather the things you need to learn & grow from.
I speak so often to others about loving themselves: making life changes for better quality of life especially when it comes to your peace of mind. Today I chose myself, self love and mental health care over unhealthy relationships. Not everyone is made for each other BUT always wish the best for them. It’s in God’s Hands……..
“Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice. Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you”. –Ephesians 4:31-32